Sunday, July 31, 2011

Long Time Coming

I've started this post numerous times, never satisfied with the words on the page, unsure if they do justice to the desired message. One more try, here goes nothing...

The past month has been a complete whirlwind of events and emotions. As many of you may have gathered, I've recently made several huge, life-changing decisions - my life will look much different this time next month. 

At the beginning of July I was fortunate enough to get to take time off work and pay my Louisiana family a much anticipated visit. While time there always provides rest and rejuvenation, it also exacerbates a constant battle of my heart. Since the day I left three years ago, I have deeply struggled with returning in a permanent capacity. Those of you who know me well understand that moving back is a deep desire of my heart. I have been talking to the Lord about it for years. At first, I prayed for the opportunity to go back because that's what I wanted. But as I've grown up and into a deeper relationship with the Lord, my prayer has been to be in the center of His will for my life, regardless of where it takes me. As I've prayed for revelation of the Lord's will for my life, I have asked Him to take the desire to move to Louisiana from me if that's not what He'd have. (It's very difficult to live fully present one place when your heart is in another.) So, there I was in Louisiana once again...but this time things were different. I can't go into all of the details here, but the important thing for you to know is that there was a series of very intentional, spirit-led conversations had about where the Lord was leading me during my time there. About halfway through the week, my heart had shifted and I knew I was facing some major decisions (for real this time). I entered a constant state of prayer - about Shreveport, about Kansas City, about Common Ground, about Hillcrest. As the days went on, my prayers became less and less cluttered and ended up sounding like this, "Lord, release me from fear. Show me your will." And He did.

The Lord is leading me back to Shreveport. I move August 23rd. And as you've probably guessed, I resigned from Hillcrest two weeks ago. Although I had been struggling at Hillcrest for months, I did not quit because it was difficult - I think I could have worked through that had the Lord told me to stay in KC - I quit to move to Louisiana. I now have an even deeper appreciation for Hillcrest than I did when I started; it will always have my support. I've grown up a lot over the past 10 months. 

There are many details that aren't here, and if you'd like to know the long-winded version of the story, let's get together. This is huge for me, friends. I'm super excited and very nervous. I still can't believe it. But right in the center of the Lord's will for my life is the safest place to be, and it never comes without His provision. 

Kansas City has been so good to me. I'm going to miss this city and the people it holds dearly. But, I am so excited to start this new chapter of life. 


Anonymous said...

I Think this is fantastic news Krysten! I know your heart has always wanted to be in LA, and I am glad that it has eventually gotten you there. I wish you the best of luck and I am glad you have followed where you feel you have been called!

David Serra said...

Welcome home, Krysten! God be with you as you make your move.

Head Full of Doubt, Road Full of Promise - Blogger Templates, - by Templates para novo blogger Displayed on lasik Singapore eye clinic.