Friday, December 17, 2010

In the End, the New Beginning

She looked at me and said, "I hope you don't expect me to have anything really cool planned, because I don't. I just wanted to spend time with you."

If she only knew how much her just wanting to spend time with me means.

I replied, "I don't care what we do. But I think we should set some ground rules: 1. I don't have to make any decisions. 2. Topics of conversation that are off limits: Hillcrest and Jenna."



And then we were off...
She introduced me to "crack tea" (which I didn't care for).
We did some Christmas shopping.
Spent WAY too much time in T.J. Maxx, but loved every second of it.
Figured out each others' favorite smells.
Laughed a lot.
Talked about normal things; you know, not work.
Sampled liquor that tasted like a cinnamon roll (or a Snickerdoodle, depending on your taste buds)
Did I mention we laughed a lot?
Basically, we spent a few hours learning how to just be friends.

And although I was exhausted, stressed out, and sick, all those things were put on hold for the few hours we spent together and I left her that evening feeling a little bit rejuvenated and pretty excited.


Thursday, December 9, 2010

I heard these words last night: "It's an honor to be your friend."




...talk about a humbling experience.

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Another One Bites the Dust

Another week down...survived.
This past week hit me like a train. My heart was already a bit tender from being at home for the holiday, so the events of the past 7 days didn't meet all the normal guards.


The week started off great -- visited a friend's church, had a great lunch, and made a new friend...a wonderful Sunday.

Anyone who walked into the Clay County office Monday afternoon found JB, Katie and I sitting on the floor, just talking. Not a lot of work got done, but it was so good.

Tuesday morning was a little overwhelming, but the day was redeemed by the evening's events. Over the past few months I have had several opportunities to tell the Hillcrest story; Tuesday evening I got that opportunity at Birthright. I sat in a living room with about 12 others and shared about Hillcrest for well over an hour. As I was leaving, one of the women pulled me aside and said, "It is very evident you love your organization. I loved listening to you talk about it." You can't even understand how much that meant to me. Seriously.

Wednesday was tough. I had to face a failure and come to terms with its consequences. Talking about it for the first time made it that much more difficult, but thankfully that was a conversation with Jed. She met the frustration and disappointment I had (have) with myself with a much needed embrace and these words, "I'm proud of you." Later that night I heard those same words from Sam. Sometimes it's funny the way God chooses to bless us -- this day He used a difficult situation to bring encouragement from two very important women in my life. And I'm grateful. (Sam and Jed: If you're reading this, thank you. You have no idea how much your words mean to me.)

Thursday my commitment to Hillcrest faltered. I didn't want to be there, like at all. Several residents tested my patience. I didn't feel like a good Case Manager. And I missed Lighting of the Quad because I was at the office until 9pm. I just wanted to be a student, but couldn't.

Friday was just...good. Clay County was good; we got a lot done and are feeling really good about Christmas next week. And I was out of Kansas by 4:30...I almost didn't know what to do with myself leaving the office while it was still light out! Friday night meant dinner at Brett's house, which is always wonderful -- this time was no exception. It was refreshing to be social, as I don't get much of that these days.

This morning Kate and I ventured into KC to start my apartment search; and, overall, it went well. AND...Finetime Family Christmas is tonight; my tacky Christmas sweater has been itching to get out of my closet.





Not a very exciting post. I think it was more for my sake, I've needed to process everything.
 
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